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“I’m a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I’m lazy, yet I’m ambitious. I don’t like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don’t care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I’m a conflicted contradiction. If I can’t figure myself out, there’s no way anyone else has.”

—

Unknown

Time to pay up.

Remember when I said that karma would pay me a visit for what I did in the past? I think she's here. And boy, she's a pain in the ass. Serves you right no? 

See what I mean?

Weekend Wonders

Just one of those days..

"Next time I'll be braver, I'll be my own savior,When the thumb that cost me,Next time I'll be braver, I'll be my own savior,Standing on my own two feet" - Adele

One Pot Wonder Tomato Basil Pasta Recipe

Found this recipe on Tumblr the other day and decided to try it since all the ingredients are available in the kitchen. Personally, I think the pasta was a little bland? So its really up to you for the taste part. Since this recipe and new technique was invented by passionate cooks, feel free to add on anything you desire to (direct quote from the blogger herself hehe) Maybe if you want it to be more spicy you can add cili padi? Not for me tho :P

I had my pasta with Beef and Vege & Cheese rolls ( you can buy beef rolls at Las Vacas if you don't have time to do it from scratch)

The original recipe is from here.

This recipe serves 4 to 6 as an entree.

I changed a little bit for mine since I don't have some of the ingredients.

340g linguine pasta
3 tbsp tomato puree
2 tomatoes, diced
1 large onion, cut in julienne strips (hiris la kata Melayu dia :B)
3 cloves garlic, thinly sliced
1/2 tsp red pepper fakes ( I used 1 packet red pepper flakes- the leftovers I got from Dominos :P)
2 tsp dried oregano leaves
2 large spring basil, chopped ( You can get this from Tesco - cheaper than Cold Storage and Jaya Grocers hehe)
4 and 1/2 cup of beef stock broth ( just mix warm water with stock - you can use chicken stock if you like)
2 tbsp olive oil
Parmesan cheese for garnish

Procedure:

1. Place pasta, tomatoes, onion, garlic, basil in a large pot. Pour in the beef broth. Sprinkle on top with pepper flakes and oregano. Drizzle top with oil.

2. Cover pot and let it boil. Reduce to a low simmer and keep covered and cook for about 10mins, keep stirring every 2 mins. Cook until almost all liquid has evaporated ( this is all up to you, i followed the blogger, I left about few inches of liquid in the bottom of the pot) or until the pasta is al dente.

3. Season to taste with salt and pepper, stirring pasta several time so the liquid distribute equally in the bottom of the pot.

This

4am

Oh how the past keeps haunting me in the middle of the night;

Made me think what was I thinking at that moment.

This song will forever give me an instant calm.

Hideaki Tokunaga - Sand Clock

“Do you remember the way the girls
would call out “love you!”
conveniently leaving out the “I”
as if they didn’t want to commit
to their own declarations. 

And I agree that the “I” is a pretty heavy concept”

—	David Berman, “Self Portrait at 28”

I don't like to chase,

I'm not very good at it,

I get tired very easily,

Therefore I will stop chasing,

 And I will wait for you at the end of the road. 

Bias

This is cute;

This is NOT CUTE;

22

Guess who's turning 22 in less than half an hour? Mehhhhhhhh! It's my birthday bitchezzz. I can do what I want and no one can say anything about it! No not really. You need money fo' that. And I aint got no cash right now. Hehehe. Gawddd. I'm 22. Wow. Thank you God, for giving me the chance to celebrate my birthday this year. And I hope to be able to do the same in many years to come. Aminnn. 22 huh. I feel old. In 8 years, I'd be 30 *facepalm* When I was in primary, I'd said to myself (even to my mum) that I'm gonna get married at 22. Because I thought 22 was the shit. Boy, I was wrong. Hahah. I havent got my shit together. That's a reality for you 8 year old self. Ngeeeh. The 22 year old of you is not even ready for the real world. I'm still living off from my parents and still sobbing every time I see pretty clothes from outside the store and ranting how expensive they are. Now that I'm 22, can I just stay 22 :( I don't wanna be old and saggy. I know thats pretty shallow but yeah whatever. Oh well, I might as well enjoy today because its mah birthdayyyyyyyy!   

Although I should be out partying since I'm 22 now just like Selena on her video 'Birthday"

but instead I'm here, banging my head on the laptop trying to figure out how the fuck am I supposed to do this stupid assignment thats due on Wednesday! 

whatever it is..

Great reminder

I've loved and I've lost.

"I know you've been hurt by someone else. I can tell by the way you carry yourself. If you let me, here's what I'll do, I'll take care of you."

Question.

Is it normal to feel delighted whenever he's giving me the attention and dispirited and gloomy whenever he's not there?
I hate feelings.

In my place

“My head is full of things
誰にも見せられないもの
that I can never tell anyone about.
頭の中溢れて
In this perfect world,
間違いさえもない世界へ
I roam a lost being.
迷い込んでる”

—	Ling Toshite Shigure, Abnormalize

Half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else,
Made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself,

Lonely was the song I sang,
'Til the day you came,
Showing me another way,
And all that my love can bring.

When Harry Met Sally

I love that you get cold when it’s 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you’re looking at me like I’m nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night.

Beautiful

“Do not fall in love with people like me
we will take you to
museums and parks
and monuments
and kiss you in every beautiful
place so that you can
never go back to them
without tasting us
like blood in your mouth.”

Zayn and Perrie are engaged

I will always be amazed with this video's cinematography.

You heard me.

Mock my fav group and I'll go ape shit on you bitchhhh 

This.

“Most things about me are hard to explain, I guess, like how I’m mostly delusional and live in a half-imaginary world but am also a realist to the core. I’m just a bunch of contradictions most of the time and I don’t like it, but I also do.”
— Marianna Paige  via Tumblr

Look, if you have nothing nice to say then shut the fuck up.

Sometimes I feel like I need to go out and travel. I'm in my 20s for god sake!

When in doubt..bake.

I really need to get this negative emotions away before it gets worse. Lately, I have been so angry and short tempered until I don't even know why I'm angry at the first place *sigh* I really need to fix this short fuse of mine. So what better way to channel these angers that has been inside me with baking :P I know, how lame. But baking makes me happy and shit. So whatever man. I've been dying to try baking Marble Cheese Brownies. Found a recipe that seems pretty legit. Gave it a try. So now its in the oven.

*I'll update the pics when they're ready :)* 

Found the recipe here

Ingredients:

Brownie Batter:

• 1/2 cup of unsalted butter, cut into cubes ( I used regular butter bcs I don't care)
• 60 grams of cooking chocolate, chopped ( I was too lazy to measure my chocolates, but I put around 200gm :D Sue me for putting more chocolate! I hope they'll taste good)
• 1 cup of sugar ( I used brown sugar )
• 2 large eggs ( used Grade A eggs)
• 1/2 tsp of vanilla extract
• 2/3 cup all-purpose flour

Cheese Batter: 

• 220 gm of cream cheese, well softened ( used 250g)
• 1/3 sugar (used brown sugar for this too)
• 1 large egg yolk
• 1/4 tsp vanilla extract

Procedure:

1. Preheat oven to 180C. Make sure the oven rack is in the middle position. 
2. Butter or put baking paper an 8-inch square baking pan.
3. Melt butter and chocolate using double boiling method. Stir occasionally, until melted.
4. Remove from heat and whisk in sugar, eggs, vanilla extract, and a pinch of salt until well combined.
5. Put in flour and fold the batter until combined with a spatula or wooden spoon. 
6. Spread 3/4 of the batter in the baking pan.

For cheesecake batter:

1. Whisk together cheesecake batter ingredients in a small bowl until smooth.
2. Dollop over brownie batter and put in the 1/4 brownies batter on top, then swirl in with a wooden stick/chopsticks/spatula/knife.
3. Bake at 180C around 35 minutes or until edges are slightly puffed and center is set.

I'm not really good at explaining.

Okay that's all for now. 

Curiosity killed the cat.

Why do I have to be so curious about the past? Knowing half of it was enough to consume all the negativeness around me. I shouldn't have asked. But I couldn't help myself to dug it all up. There's a reason why they're in the past. They're not meant to be in the present. And I can't get mad or express this anger of mine anywhere (only here I guess :P). I have no right to be angry because it was all in the past and I wasn't there. So yeah. I hate this. There's nothing much I could do except for this. Over-thinking about this petty things til I get over it. Eventually. 

All I can say is..

Curiosity killed the cat. 

And the cat is me (:

Just saying

Girl crush #3

I've been busy baking brownies and cookies for 3 days straight now. I need sleep and also a really cool room to sleep in. My kitchen is a freaking sauna! While waiting for my first brownies to bake, why not update my blog. Since I don't have anything else to do besides listening to Ariana's new track :D Ariana never fails to disappoint me with her tracks on her upcoming album. I cannot wait for her album! I bet its gonna be awesome. So far, all of her released tracks are pretty addictive. Tbh, this girl got talent. She's not just another young actress/singer wannabe who think she can do both. However, in Ariana's case. She can do both! Yeah shes that talented :P and yes I'm in love with her. I love her style, her voice and her personality. Girl crush alert! Besides Lana Del Rey and Rihanna of course. Its probably cause deeply she kinda understands what I'm feeling right now. Hahahha! *perasan kejap* 

 Anyway enjoy her new song :) 

And 

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all muslims out there! (anyone whos reading my blog, ada ke? haha )

*updated*

Can you see how perfect she looks on the set for her new video? 

Finally she loose the pony tail look..I hope she'll do more of this kinda hairstyle. 

and Ariana and her boyfriend, Jai are like one of the most cutest couple ever :3

okay thats enough Tiya.

something we all agree.

My inner fan-girl can't stop fangirling.

Hnggggg help me.

Little did you know..

I miss having long hair *sobbing*

으르렁! 으르렁! 으르렁!

EXO's new video is up! Praise the choreographer for this choreography and the EXO members who delivered this dance moves so perfectly! Kudos ;) This is probably one of my favourite EXO's video or any SM's videos. The usual trap in a box/studio, of course will always be SM's favourite concept. I guess they just like to keep their artists trap in a 4 wall studios. Hehehe. But hey, if they keep giving us this kinda quality of performance, trap them all you want. The video itself is pretty much simple but I couldn't keep my eyes off from it. I like how they made the background into some kind of abandoned warehouse or underground space rather than making it look like another fancy colourful or futuristic feel like most K-pop videos do. The fact that they're focusing more on the dance moves and not on fancy costumes and background is a plus point for me :D And I like the cinematography too. The way the camera switch to focus on other members gives a different feel to it. I still can't get over how awesome their choreography in this video! :)) Great job boys! 

Oh one more thing! I'm soooooo exicted that they're coming for MTV World Stage at Sunway Lagoon this year :DD I wanna go! I have to go! No excuses this time! Except that I hate hate crowded place *yes i know it'll be full of people that I'd definitely get annoyed with* but I'm willing to get through this. I hope. Ngeee. 

*best part*

Now my life is sweet like cinnamon

☆*･゜ﾟ･**･゜ﾟ･*☆

Pick me up and take me like a vitamin,

Cause my body's sweet like sugar venom oh yeah.

☆*･゜ﾟ･**･゜ﾟ･*☆

right

Been pretty busy and emotionally unstable.

Sí

3 basic words.

It's okay, 

It's fine, 

I'm fine.

I don't wanna do my assignments.

 I like to procrastinate. I wanna listen to Lana Del Rey, Ariana Grande, John Legend till I get sick of it. Or lay around doing nothing..watch movies and my fav series instead.
Can I just stay like this and hope that time will stop for me? (Well we all know the world doesn't work that way. *sigh* moving on...)

The answer for my past.

and

I've been in that position before. I hated it. From that day, I vow to myself that I won't let it get to me anymore. I know it's a selfish thing to do, but you wouldn't understand unless you've experienced it yourself. And if karma decided to come and pay me a visit, I'll welcome her with an open door. Because I know what I did was wrong and I deserve it. In the mean time, I'm just gonna live my life and see where it'll take me. 

"Those who are heartless, once cared too much"

That moment when your long time crush asked for your number

At first I'm like Homaigoddddddd the universe must be align or something because something like this only happen to a person once in 1000000 years. *victory dance!*

Then the excitement starts to kicking in..

*perasan jap*  

victory dance again

then..

Hngggggggggg 

Okay I'm out!